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» Skinny Bella: Skinny-Bella's Pink Chanel Wallet Giveaway♥
I’m going to be giving away my *knock off* Chanel Wallet for FREE (NO SHIPPING OR HANDLING) to one of you who reblogs this!
But you MUST be following (I check!)
- I bought it for $40.00 at a…
6/18/11
Breakfast
Half a bagel, watermelon, few handfuls of trail mix [BAD] - 500
Lunch
Egg beaters & string cheese - 200
Dinner [really late, past 10 oclock maybe later, not sure yet]
Whatever my boyfriend makes me eat blah blah… - 500 [OR LESS]
Going to the gym and gonna work out, only for about 45 minutes. Have to work today.
I’ve been doing so badly the past like, couple WEEKS because me and my boyfriend smoke, then make tons of food and eat =( but now we’re both freaking out about our fat [even though my boyfriend is like, male model perfect] so hopefully he won’t shove masses of food down my throat either. GOOD GOD, I need to get back on track, disney trip in 50 or so days and I CAN’T BE FAT FOR IT =( . Plus, my boyfriend thinks I’m getting fat too, he keeps hinting at it and whatever and it’s so embarrassing =( I think I’m 112 again. So pathetic. He talks to all these skinny pretty girls and I have nooo idea why he’s with me, I really don’t. I always fear for the day he wakes up, actually opens his eyes, sees I’m nothing then moves out. I fear it every single goddamn day. But if I were skinny again, I’d be so confident, now with my long hair and better make up/wardrobe and whatever. When I was skinny before, I didn’t know what I was doing or how to look good. But if I could get skinny now, I would know how to look SOO damn good. SO, I need to lose lose lose and tone tone tone. My future depends on it.
i had a dream about my doggy who looked kinda like this last night… she died in february :( it still haunts me every day omggg
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6022) food is all i think about, all day, everyday. i just want the voices to go away. and what makes it even worse? im still fat. i go from restricting everything, even the thought of food makes me feel sick, to being like fuck it, and binge eating. so pretty much, im going no where. i want nothing more than to be able to control myself, to stay in my ‘you do not need to eat’ frame of mind. but somehow, my ‘binge eating’ side keeps winning.
(Source: edconfessions)
